It Felt Like Ancient Rome

It usually starts with a thought. The thought flies through my brain so fast, I cannot even tell you what it was. A few minutes later, another one comes; it lingers a bit, and I focus on it. The thought usually starts with some form of “You don’t, You can’t, or You aren’t.” The thoughts keep coming, and if I dwell on them, I begin to feel discontented with my life.
The negative feelings usually follow the negative thoughts. If I allow myself to think and feel them for any length of time, I begin walking in the Desert of Discontentment. I don’t go there very often, but when I do, I begin to think about my life choices. What if I had made different choices? What would my life be like? Would it be better? If I let my mind go down that path for any length of time, I walk even further into the Desert of Discontentment.
Usually, after about an hour of walking in the Desert of Discontentment, I start to look around. It is dry and hot in the desert, and very little vegetation grows there. I find myself unhappy, and I don’t want to stay there any longer. I turn around and head back the way I came. I look for a landmark to guide me back, and then I finally see it.
On the edge of the desert, there is a small hill named Gratitude. If I keep my eyes on the hill, I can find my way out. With each step, I think about what I am grateful for: my home, my family, my health, and a hundred little things I quit being thankful for the moment I stepped into the desert.
My hike out usually takes less time than my hike in did. After a few moments of focusing on the things I am grateful for, my discontentment begins to leave. I can see my life and my circumstances from a more positive perspective, and I can find my way back from the Desert of Discontentment. And I am always truly grateful for that.
“In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” 1 Thess. 5:18 NKJV


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THE NARRATIVE
Image by Gerd Altman, Courtesty of Pixabay. Snippets of stories taken from LifesiteNews.com, July 3, 2020. Definition of Polyamory taken from Google.com.